Hello, Is This Thing On?: Notes From The Road

August 5, 2008

(Cross-posted to EastlandSpin.com)

About a week ago, I finished packing our belongings into a 14-foot U-Haul trailer, hooked up the car to a tow dolly, and began my trek west and north to the Texas Panhandle.  It’s a route I’ve traveled lots of times to visit the family, but this time, it’s one-way.

First, there were some last goodbyes.  There were hugs and farewells to Christy and her son Robert, who helped us get things loaded.  They’ve been good friends for years, and I’ll miss them both.  I made a side trip 10 miles in the wrong direction for one last goodbye to Melvis.  My “little girl” is on her own and working now, and after spending nearly seven months with her mom in Illinois, didn’t want to leave just yet.

After that, it was lunch at McDonalds, when J-Boy took part in an American rite of passage and ate his first Big Mac.  He loved it.  I stuck with the McChicken sandwich.

Then, it was time to being the trip in earnest, but it almost ended before we even left town.  I was almost hit by an 18-wheeler while trying to merge onto Interstate 20.  The driver had not moved over to the other lane, even though he could have.  No harm done to anyone, thankfully.

There’s not a lot of what could be called impressive scenery between Eastland and Sweetwater.  The rolling plains are nice to look at, but there’s nothing that makes you say “whoa”.  That changed after we left I-20 for U.S. Highway 84, and drove past the little town of Roscoe (pop. 1300).  The last time I had been in this area, over a year ago, it was cotton fields as far as the eye could see.  Now, though, something else dominates the landscape.

From a few hundred yards from the road, and stretching back to the horizon line, were hundreds of gigantic wind turbines.  Wind energy is the new cash crop in Roscoe, which now hosts one of the biggest wind farms in the nation and the world.  The turbines followed along the highway for almost 10 miles, and they were always in motion, generating electricity that could run hundreds of thousands of homes.  I don’t know how much this will help ease dependence on oil, but it can’t hurt.  And if there’s something there’s plenty of in West Texas, it’s wind.

We continued north and west through small and smaller towns:  Hermleigh, Snyder, Fluvanna.  We passed through Post (pop. 3700), a town founded in 1907 by cereal manufacturer C.W. Post as a utopian community venture.  I don’t know if having a Pizza Hut, a McDonalds and a Subway in a town the size of Post can be seen as utopian.

We reached Lubbock, the “Hub Of The South Plains” at twilight.

Lubbock was the home of rock and roll legend Buddy Holly,  and also to country singers and songwriters like Joe Ely, Mac Davis and Natalie Maines of the Dixie Chicks.  It’s also pretty isolated — surrounded by cotton fields — so maybe that’s why many of them chose to leave.

Remembering the old adage “eat where the truckers eat”, J-Boy and I stopped for dinner at a truck stop just outside Lubbock.   The chicken-fried steak was wonderful.  The nachos, not so much.

After that, it was back on the road, and through towns like New Deal, Plainview (and it is a plain view), Tulia, Happy (the “Town Without A Frown”), and Canyon.  J-Boy started noticing a unique smell in the air.  I told him, “Welcome to cattle country, son.”

It was around 10 p.m. when we reached Amarillo.

downtown Amarillo at night

downtown Amarillo at night

This was where I spent a lot of teenage Saturday nights, at least when me and my friends had gas money.  It’s grown quite a bit since I’ve been away.

After leaving Amarillo, the rest of the trip was pretty uneventful.   J-Boy slept while I drove the truck under the expansive starry skies of the Panhandle.  We got to Mom and Dad’s after 11 p.m.   It’s hard to describe what I felt upon arriving back in my old hometown.  It’s a jumble of emotions — relief, happiness, sadness, anger — it’s hard to describe in words just yet.  In any case, I’m thankful that after losing my house, I still have a home.


Hello, Is This Thing On?: Whatever Doesn’t Kill Me

July 28, 2008

(Cross-posted to EastlandSpin.com)

Cardboard boxes and plastic trash bags are scattered all over the floors of this house today. Not “my” house; not anymore. In just a couple of days I’ll leave it for the last time, and leave Eastland County, my home for the past 14 years.

I don’t think it’s un-manly to acknowledge the mixed feelings that arise while packing things away. There’s the feelings of love while I pack away baby pictures of both Melvis and J-Boy. Then there’s the feeling of satisfaction when I throw away the Barry Manilow albums the ex-wife left behind.

There’s sadness involved, too, when I think of the people I’ll be leaving behind. I’ve never really been an extroverted person, but I’ve been blessed with some good friends and acquaintances. Some I met through work, some at church, some here at Eastland Spin. I won’t even try to name them all, because I really don’t want to hurt anyone if I inadvertantly don’t mention them. If you think I’m talking about you here, than I probably am.

I’m not a student of philsophy, but I do have the barest knowledge of German philospher Friedrich Nietzsche. I don’t agree with many of his opinions, especially “God is dead”, but he hit on something profound when he said:

“What does not kill me, makes me stronger.”

I don’t claim to have had the most gloom, despair and agony (on me, ohh!) of anyone, but if I’m honest, I have to say I’ve dealt with a fair load of horse manure in the last eight years. The final five years of my marriage were mental and spiritual torture. Then, it got worse after she finally left for good. I’ve had four stents put in my heart, developed type 2 diabetes, been in a car crash, lost the job I loved, and lost the home I thought was mine.

I also attempted suicide three times between 2002 and 2006.

But I lived. I’m alive today. None of it killed me. And I’m thankful.

I believe God deserves all the credit. I can’t understand the reasons why it all happened the way it did. But I believe that He has my best interests at heart, so I’m okay with not knowing the exact reasons for it all. I think it’s prepared me for where I am today, and it has indeed made me a better, stronger person.

Nietzsche, though no friend of Christianity, did hit a nugget of truth. If something doesn’t drag you past the point of no return — death — you can recover. There are exceptions to that, of course, but generally, it can be done, sometimes easily, sometimes not.

All that past pain is an old chapter in my story. There’ll be more in the future, but I’ll deal with it as it comes. I have better things to anticipate: a better-paying job, reunions with old friends I haven’t seen in decades, and more time with my extended family. There’s a great big world out there, and it will be a great adventure to see what it holds.

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This will be my final piece for Eastland Spin (and here at the Secret Broadcast Cave)until after the move. I’ll have internet where I’m going, but I’ll need time to connect the wires, screens, and doohickeys, and chase all the bats out. Be back soon.


I May Be Getting The Hang Of This Thing…

July 23, 2008

While preparing for the move, I’ve been using my online radio software as a music player.  I just start it and let it go through the format clock, picking songs.  Now that it’s had a few days, the songs are playing in a much better balance, and I’m getting a better mix of eras and styles.  This radio station thing may just work out, after all!

Here’s the most recent hour:

Tavares - It Only Takes A Minute

Bob Seger - Fire Lake

Matt Nathanson - Come On, Get Higher

UB40 - Can’t Help Falling In Love

Paul Simon - Slip Slidin’ Away

Steve Winwood - Higher Love

Daughtry - Over You

Richard Marx - Now And Forever

ZZ Top - Legs

Fleetwood Mac - You Make Lovin’ Fun

The Last Goodnight - Stay Beautiful

Jane Wiedlen - Rush Hour

Hootie & The Blowfish - Only Wanna Be With You

John Mayer - Say

Anita Ward - Ring My Bell

Billy Squier - Everybody Wants You


Bits And Pieces, The “One Week Until We Move” Edition

July 22, 2008

We’re over half-packed, thanks to Melvis.  There’s still my room to do, and some more to clean out of the garage.  I’m having a moving sale Saturday to clean out a bit more and get some more cash for the move.

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Melvis’ boyfriend sent some money to her via a Wal-Mart MoneyGram.  We went to the nearest WallyWorld to cash it, only to be told by the lady in customer service that it couldn’t be cashed.  Wha-huh?  First we were told it was because the money order was already made out to Melvis.   Guess the boyfriend should have just left it blank so ANYONE could use it.  Then, we were told by someone higher up the store ladder that they don’t cash the MoneyGrams, they just sell them.  Sheesh.

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Haven’t seen “The Dark Knight” yet.  That’ll have to wait until after the move.  But I did rent “Batman:  Gotham Knight” from the friendly neighborhood Redbox.  It’s six animated stories that take place between “Batman Begins” and “The Dark Knight”.  I liked most of them, but especially the first and last segments.  Check it out if you’re a Batman fan.

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It’s J-Boy’s 12th birthday today.  There’ll be cake and ice cream and good times.  I’d send you some cake, but that’s hard to attach to a blog post.  Where’s Reed Richards when you need him?  Or even Dr. Horrible?


Bits And Pieces

July 10, 2008

My daughter is back home after living with her mom for seven months.  It’s great to have her back, even if I’ll only see her for a few weeks before the move.

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Speaking of moving, I have a little less than three weeks to go.  I have two boxes packed.  I have a long way to go, and a short time to get there.

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I’m trying out the new Windows Live Writer with this post.  Yeah, it’s Microsoft, but it comes on the recommendation of a friend of mine, who usually dislikes all things Microsoft.  We’ll see how it works.


Addicted to…

July 6, 2008

So…

…a few nights ago, I got on my computer, started a few pieces of software, connected to the internet, and did one last test run for the internet radio station I want to get running. Things went pretty well, I think. But there were unexpected consequences.

Not long ago, I wrote here that I thought I was pretty much through with radio as a career. It turns out I’m a liar.

You see, this test run was different from the rest in that I had a microphone. I got to speak a few times during the four-hour broadcast. It was the first time I’d done anything like a radio show in over a year. About halfway through I realized what a great time I was having…and found myself thinking, “Why did I ever give this up?” I remembered pretty quickly that I didn’t quit, it was taken from me. But still, why did I walk away so easily? When I lost my job at the radio station after 10 years there, I was fed up, just not with radio entirely. I was fed up with people who would tell me one thing to my face and then not live up to their promises, ever. People who, after telling me they couldn’t afford to pay any live DJ’s, turned around and hired one for another of their stations just 30 miles away. I short, I was tired of the BS. Maybe that’s the only thing I was tired of.

It’s an old saying in the business that once you’re in radio, you never really get it out of your blood. For many, that’s true, and I’m finding out that it’s true for me. I suppose it’s that way whenever you find a job that you love. And I loved being on the air, playing music, talking to people, and just trying to make their mornings a little easier. When someone would call to tell how that joke or little story made their day, it brightened mine too. And I want to have that again. It’s like the proverbial monkey on my back.

Unfortunately, there doesn’t seem to be a place in modern radio for a guy like me. Small town stations don’t have the money to pay people, and the larger stations are run by companies who don’t want to pay live on-air talent because it might cut into profits. I guess online is the only thing left for me. But I’ll take it, because I can’t stop. I’m addicted.


Wordle Rocks

June 28, 2008

Wordle is a web application that takes text you supply and makes what they call “beautiful word clouds”.  See what I did with one of my earliest posts…

Go to Wordle yourself and see what you can create.


Friday Flashback: I’m Too Sexy For This Blog

June 27, 2008

Here’s a fun song that sprang up seemingly out of nowhere in January of 1992.  British pop-dance trio Right Said Fred recorded a song that was sung from the point of view of an extremely vain model, and took it to number 1 on Billboard within a month.  “I’m Too Sexy” pokes fun at the world of the supermodel, and mixes it with an infectious beat and keyboard line.  It’s a great song to play when you feel the need to get up and shake your little tush, catwalk or no catwalk.


Pack Up Your Troubles In A U-Haul Van And Smile, Smile, Smile!

June 26, 2008

Okay, I’m not moving for another month, but if you’ve ever moved, you know you can’t wait until the last minute.  That’s why transmissions from the Cave have been few lately.  I have a lot to pack, and do you know how hard it is to find a new cave in the Texas Panhandle?  I may have to build one myself.

Friday Flashback will be here tomorrow, as usual, with a fun song and video, the title of which would never apply to me in the slightest.  See ya then.


Friday Flashback: I Go HoJo

June 20, 2008

Today, it’s a song and video from a man who started taking piano lessons at age 7.  By 15, he joined his first band.  Somewhere along the way, he discovered synthesizers and by 1983, Howard Jones had released his first record.  (Yeah, I know that’s not much of a biography, but I’m sure you can find more out there if you want.)

He made the US pop charts for the first time in early 1983 with “New Song”, which set the pace for most of his best-known work…upbeat and positive, and very heavy on keyboards and synthesizers.  The light musical feel stood in contrast to his lyrics, in which he often sang about philosphy, spirituality, and humanistic ideals.  He hit his commerical peak in 1985 with the release of Dream Into Action, which contained two of his biggest hits, including “Things Can Only Get Better”.

Howard still continues recording and touring, though more often than not, he plays acoustic concerts.  I got his Acoustic Across America album several years ago, and it’s impressive how well the songs translate from all the electronic wizardry to just piano and some percussion.